Embracing Solitude

Today, I am just brainstorming, doing some free writing, and minding off proper use of language. It is very surprising how good it feels when you get done. I am definitely enjoying my solitude at this moment. I better enjoy it because 3 days from now, I am not going to do it very often due to a hectic life. I finally was able to sit down and start reading an inspirational book. It feels good sometimes that you will be able to free yourself from your every days harried schedule. Hopefully, this will be the start of getting myself into the mood of motivation-to do something I want to accomplish in the near future.

I am very expressive in a lot of things. Even being alone, I appreciate the calmness that I experienced. While embracing solitude I came up with this....

• I get to know myself more- that I am crazy and sometimes not. Definitely different from everybody. I guess, part of being unique.
• I find out what's important to me and learn to set my boundaries.
• I find out a lot of things I am good at- so many to mention
  
• I have the freedom to try out new things-freedom to write the most junk in the world. But I won't do that in the worldwide web. ha ha! I don't want all my secrets revealed out there.
• It's nice to take part in the beauty of nature- not to mention my passion in photography and my vainness itself. This is the part I always get in trouble with. I am often the eye of the negative people. So what? I can carry it anyway. They better not mess with me because I'll bite and chew them good. ha ha!
  
• I think I have life my life to the fullest. - I had fun, got in trouble, and learned some lessons.
  
• I can create my own dreams- everyone have the power to do this.
  

Today, I Will......

• Be strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.

• Talk to health, happiness and prosperity to everyone I meet.

• Make everyone I know feel that there’s something good in them.

• Look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.

• Think only of the best, to work only for the best and expect only the best.

• To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about of my own.

• Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to a greater achievements of the future.

• Wear a cheerful countenance at all times, and give every living creature I meet a smile.

• Give so much time for the improvement of myself that I have no time to criticize others.

• Be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble in my mind.

Draw Me Close To You

One of my favorite song. I am recognizing God as the source of my knowledge, strength, and wisdom. Without him, I am nothing.

Just a thought....

Do not let bad experiences stop you from enjoying and living life to the fullest. Only by overcoming our obstacles we can truly become strong. If the road is paved smoothly, we will grow complacent and become unable to build a solid foundation in our lives. Rather, have a journey that is totally worn out, thoroughly used up, and loudly proclaiming....WHEW! such a bumpy fun ride of LIFE!

Just a piece of my thoughts..... ^_^!

WHEN ARE WE GOING TO?

I had a good time partying last night. It would be more fun if others know how to keep their rude comments to their selves. And if you think that the advice you are about to give are helpful to others. It should be given privately and not in front of many that embarrassed and hurt someone. Hope we can learn to know that the pattern we have in our life can’t be the same with others. We should respect other people’s individuality. We all have something special within ourselves, as God made us unique from each other.

When are we going to cut off this mentality that everyone tends to hold? No offense please. We can learn from each other. Life and making a lot of friends could be more fun instead of a dreadful experience. WE CAN DO THIS CHANGE!

After all, we are here to LIVE, LAUGH, and LOVE.

Success - What is It?

Recently, I was verbally attacked by a person whose name I won't mention, as I would like to move away from that incident. However, I thought about the things she said a long while, trying to figure out why she would attack me in the manner she did, when I've never done anything to her, and why she considered herself “successful” and considered me to be “trash”.

It finally occurred to me that she was attacking me because she had gathered more “stuff” than I have, and she felt that having more stuff made her successful. By that, I mean she has a nicer house, a nicer car, and perhaps a bunch of nick-knacks that fills her house, as well as claiming higher education with her “MBA” which she called a “Master of Bachelors in Accounting” (I always thought an MBA was a “Masters in Business Administration”). After meditating about it, I was still puzzled - was this person truly “successful”? Also, since everyone wants to be “successful”, are we supposed to follow her path to success?

I came to the conclusion that Success is not a destination - Success is a Journey! Perhaps the person to whom I mentioned (that had attacked me), considers herself a success in that she has accomplished her goal - that is, she was able to marry an American who pulled her out of poverty and apparently loves her enough to give her things to make her life comfortable and even luxurious, compared to her former life. But, if a person stops there, and doesn't have a new goal to reach, where is the success? Is she content to wallow in her exalted place, and watch others struggle? Hmm, perhaps I can understand her problem now - maybe she sees these people working hard to achieve success, and she is afraid she will be passed up. Her success has turned into a failure in that she is no longer growing, and she thinks she can only maintain her elevated position by belittling others - that is ultimately the saddest thing I can think of! If only she would use the same amount of effort in reaching new goals and helping others - then I could truly admire her for her achievements!

True success is not just obtaining riches - as a matter of fact, it doesn't even have to do anything with riches... true success is working towards a goal, and using the talents that our Wonderful God in Heaven has given us to obtain that goal - and at the same time, helping others to reach THEIR goals! As that great motivational speaker Zig Ziglar said, ”If you want to succeed, just help enough other people to succeed.” And when a goal is reached, have another goal to work toward! The Journey of Success never ends, as there will always be others to help along the way.

So, to all of my friends, let me say how much I admire most of you for your true success -that is, God has opened a door of opportunity for you in allowing you to come to this Land of Opportunity, and you have taken full advantage of this blessing! You are working hard to better yourselves and the people around you, and I applaud you for this.

However, for those who have received this blessing and choose to “sit on their laurels”, as if coming here alone is the epitome of success, and you can only insult those who work hard to make their own lives as well as the lives of others better, my heart breaks for you. You just do not understand what True Success is, and because of that, you may never know True Happiness.

Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven. Matthew 5:16

Yehaaa....

My goodness! I'm finally backed into this blog. I've decided to take a summer break. God knows, I needed it so bad. I am just waiting now for the results of my finals and to see if I will be able to get in the nursing program this year. There's so many of us on this field and there is a limit on how many students they are going to take in for the training each year. Just in case, I wouldn't be on the list this year, I already got a plan ahead what I want to do. I am ready to put my foot forward into a different challenge in few months. Right now, I just want to revive my energy. As a matter of fact, I am back working out.... doing my yoga-Pilates. I feel a lot better. These past few days, it was so good to be able to sleep long hours and I was able to pamper myself a little bit. I did paint my nails and went on a little bit of shopping. It was so nice to find time for myself and also some time with my family, especially with my son. They were so glad to have me back. These past couple of years was so tough for me and I couldn't wait to get done very soon.

Well, looks like I don't know what else to talk about. I am just now looking forward to have some fun during this break. I feel like I missed out on a lot of things, but I know it's going to be worth it in the long run.

In hiatus....

I am sorry; I am going to put this blog in a hiatus right now. I got so busy in school & work, and other things. It is not even funny. But I will surely be back one day and hopefully by that time I have lots of things to write about :)

Confused

Well, it seems like forever since I have visited this blog. I think this is my first blog for the year 2010. The start of this year has been good to me and my family so far. We have accomplished a lot, such as we finally got the justice for my dad. It was a tough battle for 5 years. We did not expect to have it but God is good. And another thing is that my sister passed her board exam for nursing. I was extremely happy about it because it was a first sister that I had given all my effort and did not make a detour. It felt like I have accomplished something for myself too because I did sacrificed a lot. I still have to figure out how to help her take the NCLEX so she could travel abroad. But at least the tough part was finished.

Now, I remembered to visit my blog because I am so confused and overwhelmed with what to do with all this things ahead of me. It's getting tougher each time and sometimes I kind of doubt myself because it was too much to handle. I already seek an opinion to my mom, sister, husband, best friend, but the decision is really up to me. So here I am brainstorming again. I am almost done with the things I need to get out of my way such as finishing my minors. This should be my last semester but I am still taking 13 units which is considered full time and at the same time got a job to maintain and family to take care of. Now, I am trying to get into the clinical part this summer which includes the training I need. It only comes once a year. I am already qualified but I have to take an entrance exam to get on it. If I have to take a chance, it is going to be this month of February and I really don't have the time to review because I am still studying for the stuff I have in front of me. Not to mention, I have exams every 2 weeks in all of my four subjects. Basically, I am confused of which, where, and what to start. The fearless side of me which is my Ego says, "Go for it!"... You can do it!... but the other side of my head which is my Super Ego says , "No, you’re not ready yet!"...you could end up delaying your goal if you fail the exam. I really don't know which one of them I will listen. As far as knowing myself, I am hard headed and liked to take a chance but on the other hand, I used wisdom a lot on certain things. We will see what blows my mind! .... To be continued some other day when I feel like writing :)